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Weeds Can Bloom Too
Confronting the fear of being seen and heard
posted on: 2025.11.01
Hi friends,
let me be vulnerable for a moment here. I need to confront my fear of being heard and seen. I need to confront my discomfort with being public. I need to face the panic of not having control over how others perceive me. That’s why I’ll be writing here. I want to confront how I paralyze and censor myself because of how much I overthink everything like it’s going to be used in a court case. I want to share some of my thoughts and learn to claim space without feeling guilty.
I often find myself wondering, what do I have to offer after all these years? And after drawing a blank for long on this question, looking back on the past 10 years of my life, I see themes of letting go of old programming and a need to redefine or rebuild myself, my relationships, my perspectives and understanding of the world around me, near and far.
First I thought that maybe that’s what I have to offer, sharing little pieces of my journey hoping they contain some wisdom. And then it hit me, I don’t need to justify the use of my voice. I don’t need permission to express myself. I often forget that. I don’t need to be useful in order to have worth. I’m learning to step into that.
So here I am, without the pretense to share words of wisdom or knowledge but just words as I am and as I bloom further in my 40ies. I’ll start by sharing thoughts on rest and slowing down. That’s where I’m at.
I’d be honored if you’d like to follow along, but we can still be friends if you don’t. I don’t intend to post too often. I don’t actually have a schedule or plan but once a month sounds ambitious to me — use that as reference if you’d like. If you subscribe and get annoyed, just unsubscribe. I know we’re all overwhelmed. Well, at least I am constantly overwhelmed, maybe you’re just busy.